The Philosophical Phenomenon

Well, I’m 2/3 the way there on my challenge. Not very consistent, I decided to start taking dialysis days off from exercise. I am too exhausted after the procedure of dialysis, it’s like your body running a marathon for a few hours. So I’m doing my best and not getting upset when I need a day off. From either writing, yoga, or social media, sometimes I need a break. There is so much going on in the world right now, it’s such an angry and scary place. Everyone is very stressed

I have a lot of thoughts and a lot of feels today. I’ve been trying to think of something to say, the right thing to say, but there are just no words sometimes. However, I can’t say nothing. So, I will do something completely unprecedented for me, I will quote the Bible. “Speak up for those who cannot speak for themselves; ensure justice for those being crushed. Yes, speak for the poor and helpless, see that they get justice” Proverbs 31:8:9 Sometimes you have to show others

Today was a good day, again. I seem to be having a string of them lately. I had to change my mentality, usually that’s all it takes to be happier. Life is not about what you’re given, but what you make of it. I’ve always said that, I’ve always believed it.You have to start by thinking about the things you’re thankful for. I believe it is what helps people in religion, being thankful is a very positive thing. If you start blaming things in your life for what goes wrong, you te

Today was another good day. I’ve been staying off fb and my mental health has been so much improved! I went on a little bit earlier and liked some things and ignored anything negative. I don’t care what side it’s from, I skipped over it. I’m taking my advice from yesterday, no judgement, letting it go, staying sane. The last couple of days I have been working on a secret project. Nothing super exciting, but I’m not ready to share yet. Hopefully by early next week I can share.

I had to take a mental break from posting. Everything I was writing was negative and it was so frustrating to me. I know I don’t want to add negativity to my life, so I didn’t feel like sharing was right for me the last few days. I was doing yoga and meditating still, but I will share the pictures now that I am writing again. Doing this yoga challenge has been difficult for me in a number of ways, I expected it to be difficult physically but actually emotionally was harder fo

I learned pretty early on in this yoga challenge that this was more a challenge about spending time and learning about myself than the actual yoga. Of course I am enjoying the yoga, but I’m enjoying being introspective even more. Today I was in the worst mood I remember being in for a very long time. I was yelling at everyone and I don’t ever yell. It takes a lot for me to even raise my voice and I really yelled at Jobe and was super nasty to my grandparents both. Then just f

Today was a tough day, I’m not sure what’s going on but I have been so dizzy. I slept most of the day. I hardly did anything, I barely even read because even that was making me sick to my stomach. I was up all night with stomach pains, my stomach felt like it was on fire. I hate talking about how awful I feel all the time. I actually kind of hate when people ask me, “how are you doing?” because I never have a fun answer for them. Unless I lie, which I’m not about either. So h

Today is Monday, this post is from Sunday night when I did my yoga. Maybe it’s been a bit confusing because I’ve been doing yoga one day and then posting about it the next. I usually prefer to do my yoga at night time before bed, that’s when I’ve done most of my exercising for years. Most of the time exercise doesn’t energize me, it exhausts me. I like to take a hot bath or shower after and fall into bed. Feeling accomplished, weak, and tired. Today I’m writing about yesterda

Yoga was easier today, I finally LET GO! I breathed at my own pace and was in my zone. That is, until Jobe came in. Again. As always when I want 90 minutes to myself at 8-9pm (his time to watch tv or play video games) he has to be at my door, pushing it open, talking to me through it. It’s starting to drive me banana sandwich. Is anyone else over this quarantine yet? Wooo-saaa. That’s all I can do, keep breathing. Obviously I love my son, but he’s overwhelming. Anyone who kno

Well, yoga tonight was more of the same if not worse. All of a sudden during warrior pose I felt like I was going to pass out and I couldn’t breathe. I wasn’t doing any sun salutations or anything remotely challenging, nothing straining. I think my bloated belly was just pushing up on my lungs and I couldn’t breathe. So, I stopped. Unlike the day before I was ok with it. I also struggle with yoga and finding my breath, it’s so much about that that I feel like I’m doing it wro